I don't know what's gotten into me these days.

Maybe I do, I just don't know how to put them in words.

It's my last day of work and I should be enjoying, but I'm not.

I feel miserable right now. I feel like tearing up several times.

Nightmares are haunting me almost every night and I always wake up in shock gasping for reality.

It feels like deja vu all over again.

The pain and the fear are all choked up inside me.

Right now as I'm typing away, I can feel my anxiety level rising for god knows why.

I don't know what I'm afraid of. But I'm scared.

Need something to numb myself.

Help me.