My source of happiness

There are hundred of things that could make me laugh, that could make me smile, that could make me happy.

But there's only one person who is able to make me feel so blissful.

It's you.

My source of happiness is you.

Update

Just re-did my blog.

I don't know, it kinda feels messy, no?

But I'm too tired and lazy to edit right now so I guess I'll be sticking to this for quite awhile before I decide on changing anything again.

Time flies really fast, another week has passed.

Just two more weeks before my lovely class gets disbanded. 

Cringing at that thought.

Just today, I was in the washroom and I heard some girls talking about how they would like to punch and slap some of their classmates because they're horrid.

That made me not want to change class even more.

Tell me why must we change classes again?

It's getting pretty late, goodnight!

Since I've made a decision, I'm going to stick by it.

I will not be affected.

:)

Update

Haven't been updating this space for quite some time and I'm sorry about that.

Life's been pretty hectic for me.

So much to do, so little time.

Haven't been attending soccer practice for nearly two weeks now and am feeling extremely guilty about it.

As much as I want to stay committed, it's just hard for me with so many things on my plate.

I know I'm making excuses for myself but if I really want to kick a damn good ball, I've got to stop missing out on practice.

We're changing classes in about two weeks time.

Well screw the damn rule. I love my class so much that it pains me to even imagine us being allocated to different classes for the next semester.

Why would you want to break a class up after being so closely bonded? :(

I have no idea how I managed to live for the past few weeks despite being a broke fuck.

I literally scrimped and saved whenever I could. Really unbelievable.

Got to start looking for a job that has a flexible timing ASAP.

Ending off with a quote:

The only thing that stands between a person and what they want in life, is the will to try it and the faith to believe it is possible.

xoxo

Why?

Yesterday was supposed to be a happy day for us. At least I thought it would be.

I don't know what went wrong either.

I don't know what to do, or how to feel.

This feeling sucks.

Trying to sleep it off and waking up to a better tomorrow.

"Start your new day with a new spirit and hope. Leave bad things behind and have faith for a better tomorrow"

I hope it works.

I will, I repeat, I will wake up to a better tomorrow.

I love you, silly ass.

I'll always love you.

Ladies night

I had a fucking good time with my sexy girls last Saturday.

Got bounced out, squeezed into a cab, headed down to Arab street and partied all night.

Love these girls!

I'm looking forward to more ladies night with em, xoxo! 

Personal Issues

I realised I have this issue of being straight-forward.

I am not a straight-forward person at all.

Especially when disputes be it minor or major happen between friends or relationships.

I just find it rather hard to talk about my real feelings and thoughts. Normally what I would do, is to beat around the damn bush before coming clean on the truth.

I find it even harder to talk about it face to face. I'd rather type it out than speak my mind.

I can't help it you know? That's just me for you.

And because of this, it sorta stirred up problems that were uncalled for.

It costed my tears, my anger, my happiness and probably, my faith.

But it's okay, I'm going to learn from these episodes of life and try to prevent these situations from happening again because they really suck.

I need to re-adjust my emotions as well. 

They gotta stop being all bitchy and fucked up whenever they want already.

Love

Things are starting to look for the better.

I hope this continues.

"Real love is when you go through the hardest trials of trust & sacrifice, yet still waking up every morning falling in love all over again"

Losing grip.

Everything changed in an blink of an eye.

But it's going to be okay Audrey, you're going to be okay.

I don't know which route to take.

I don't know which is better for me, for us.

I can't seem to feel you here anymore.

Losing grip.

Those eight words stabbed my heart.

"Love takes effort and acceptance. It won’t always be a happy ride. You’ll cry when you’re hurt, you’ll be sad when you’re ignored. But hold on and always remember. Love hurts when it is real."

You're not the only one who's been tearing up.

I just never mentioned it to you.

I'm trying to fix things, to make things work, but my efforts seem to be going downhill.

I don't know what to do anymore.

It seems like I'd only make things worst.

I'm so sorry.

I can't bear to lose you my dear.

Please, I need you.

Everything seems fine.

But is it?

I don't know..

Sorry.

I'm awake, with millions of things running through my head.

There are so many things I wish to say, I wish you can hear me, but I suck hands down.

I'm just not good at talking about my feelings verbally.

I would swear my love for you if god forbids.

I don't know why I even made up excuses for myself upon loving you.

Of course I love you. How can I not love you?

You're everything to me. What am I even saying?

I hate it when we are like this.

Both you and I know things aren't supposed to be like this.

I'm sorry for being selfish, for hurting you, for making you upset.

I love you, I miss you, and I wish you were here.

#sfdp's lepak night

Almost skipped school today, but I didn't.

Somehow, body knows it's math class so it didn't want to get out of bed at all but I managed to pull myself up at around 10 AM.

I'm guessing today's grade would be an F because I contributed pretty much nothing to my team.

Oh well.

Before I forget, my dear Natalie just turned 17 today and the girls and I surprised her with a mini birthday celebration.

My lovely girls :)

Moving on, headed down town with my sdfp right after math UT.

Sidetrack, I have a hunch that I'm going to flunk it. I mean, I didn't even bother to study for it!

Math is just a bitch to me.

Or either ways.

Decided to lepak and sheesha at Arab street.

A very epic thing happened on the way home.

And that proved that karma really exist. No kidding.

Anyway I really enjoyed my time with these people.

It's really strange but cool how we're somehow connected with each other.

#sfdpforever ♥

Do it in the A.M

This is what happens when I am bored while waiting for my lovely boy to get home.

So, it's already the 5th of July and nothing been done to my hair.

I am an awesome procrastinator.

Anyway, I have decided on dying + perming my hair.

I don't know how it's going to turn out but like I've said, what's life without taking risks right?

I've even thought of chopping my long locks off, which I know I'll regret terribly if I did so I kinda killed that thought.

It's the start of UT week and I haven't really studied or revised for any of my subjects.

I'm seriously starting to go off track for my studies.....

Gotta find all means to get myself into study mode, at least for this period.

I love having long night chats. Talks that last till dawn.

They make life more worthwhile than it already is.

xo

Where are you?

This is driving me insane.

After this morning's incident and not hearing anything from you ever since 12pm, I'm getting really worried.

My thoughts are trying to scare the fuck out of me.

I hope you're fine and nothing's happened to you.

I'm still waiting for your call or text.

Please, get back to me soon.

Update

#nowplaying Turbulence - Laidback Luke, Lil Jon, Steve Aoki

It's almost 2AM and I've a wedding ceremony to attend later in the morning.

That leaves me about 6 hours of sleep before I have to drag my lazy ass off the bed.

I'm thinking of wearing my zara skirt but then again, would it be appropriate for such occasion since the colour's pretty loud?

Anyway, will be heading down to Arab street tomorrow with two of my girls.

Really need to let myself loose once in awhile.

Goodnight x